A profound experience – writing one’s legacy letter

legacy-letter-2Writing one’s own legacy letter is a profound experience for many reasons. It makes you face your own mortality, and that’s not easy to do.

After having started this process, with much apprehension I must say, I can say now that I am sorta pleased I finally took the time to do this.  Believe it or not, it’s a liberating and insightful experience.  Until we make the time to sit down and think about what is truly important to you, what it is you want to tell others about, what you value, what you wish for others, etc. I don’t think we truly know for ourselves. And for good reason. It’s not something we think about every day, at least not holistically. Yes, I think we each think about these sorts of things at various times and in varying degrees throughout our lives, depending on what’s happening. When friends or family are ill, we think about some of these things. When we are faced with difficult life circumstances we think about these things. But it’s done so in more of a “… I need to get to that at some time…” or “… I really should do this, or let someone know that…”. It’s mostly about the specific thing, and not holistically thinking about what if I weren’t here any longer. What would others know about wants, dreams, wishes, etc. Would those close to me know what I value in this world, what I believe in, what I wish for them, what I remember and cherish most about them, what makes me smile, what hurts me, what makes me angry, what makes me cry, what I hope and dream about doing, what’s on my “bucket list”…. You get the idea.

Have you ever taken the time to think about these all at the same time, and in that type of context? Probably not. I know I hadn’t. I’ve thought about most of them in a one-off singular fashion at various times throughout my life. But seeing what other friends around us are facing, and with a fairly major surgery of my own soon about to happen, this bubbled up to the top of my to-do list. And let me say this. I am grateful that it has, even though it was difficult to get going.

I think everybody should do one. Neither of us are guaranteed a future, so if you wish to leave your family, friends and loved ones a living legacy, if you will, I would encourage you to do so.  What’s stopping you?  Trust me, you’ll be glad you did. It really helps you hone in on what’s most important to you.  And there is tremendous value in doing that, not just for those around you if you are gone, but for yourself while you are here now!  Facing a looming and fairly significant surgery myself, this process has helped me see that some of the things I thought were important to me, really aren’t, and it’s helped me see what I really want to focus on when I recover.  And that’s priceless.

Until next time… enjoy life!

In good health

As most of our family and friends are aware, I’ve been dealing with some health issues the last 6 months. I expected that I would be coming out the other side of things by now and that I’d be feeling better, however, things have not progressed as much as hoped and I am still waiting for more tests to see what’s going on almost 6 months after initial symptoms. Hopefully that will happen over the coming weeks.

In the meantime, I needed to just get words from my head to the paper. I’ve realized through this period of time just how important one’s health is, not just physical health, but our mental health that goes hand-in-hand.  I can’t even begin to describe to you how the last six months has played out in my mind.  I don’t know if I even know what it feels like to be normal anymore, and trust me, I’m still so much luckier than most people that are really suffering from debilitating conditions.  I’m still so very thankful in that regard, and my issues pale in comparison to most.  So don’t take this a “poor me / pity me” type of story.  That is by no means my intent.  I simply want to let you know how much something like this can affect your whole state of being, not just the ailment itself.  I don’t even recall what “normal” feels like anymore.  I haven’t slept normally in over 5 months.  I don’t know what a normal day at the office feels like anymore.  I forget what it’s like to be active with the kids, or to do any exertive activity.  I’m always on tip-toes wondering if the next thing I do is going to bring on more symptoms.  I rarely feel rested when I wake.  And on and on and on it goes….

For those of you that have been through any type of sickness or longer term ailment, you know exactly what I’m talking about.  For those of you that haven’t, I hope you never do.  It is not fun.  And the worst of all is not knowing.  Not knowing what the issue really is.  Not knowing if you’re getting better or worse.  Not knowing when it’s going to end, or if it’s going to end, or if it’s going to get worse, or if it’s going to be long term, will you ever be the same again, etc.  That has a tremendous toll on your body, but I believe the mental toll can be just as damaging.  So just shrug it off and forget about it and move on, right?  I wish it were that simple.  I’ve tried, believe me.  But until you know exactly what it is, you can’t just push it out of your mind.  And even when you do, I’m sure you still can’t.

Anyway, that’s all I wanted to say.  I needed to get that off my chest for some reason today.  Thanks for hanging in there and listening!

Cheers from North of 60!  Hopefully you’re all enjoying summer.


Children’s questions at the dinner table – Part 1

I will begin to document the ever-increasing vocabulary of my 2 boys, who are now aged 9 and 10.  Some of the questions are a part of growing up, but still take me off guard!!

Just before bed time

What is sexual harassment?

Comment from the 9-year-old: It could have to do with naked ladies who dance around poles

Driving to school the next day

What is exploitation?

Further updates as the questions continue….


Getting ready for Christmas….

Yes, I know it is only September, but living in the North has me purchasing christmas gifts early.

With only one store in Yellowknife that I can  purchase items for the kids (excluding the electronic stores), I tend to do my shopping online.

My biggest problem this year is the “pre-teen Christmas”.  If you ask the boys what they would like this year, their response is always the same…laptops and cell phones.

I have 2 issues with this:

  1. Both Dave and I feel they are too young for laptops and cell phones
  2. Aren’t they still just kids? What happened to marbles and skipping ropes?

It seems that all my boys are interested in is technology…not sure if that is a bad thing.  What I do know that instead of calling friends on the weekend they would rather plant their arses in front of the computer playing games.

Unfotunately, my kids don’t have any friends on the street where they live.  We do allow them to take their bikes to go visiting a friend, whick works out okay for the oldest, but the youngest’s friends live on the other side of town.  We have talked about moving many times, even looked at houses and put in offers, but housing prices are crazy in YK and we have decided to stay put for another year.

This of course leads me up to winter and Christmas.  With cold dark days in the winter and not much playing outside, we have to fill their time with indoor activities.  There is only so many board games you can play.  When friends used to visit last year they would be playing with Nerf guns in the house, dressing up in old halloween costumes and running around.  Sometimes they would play a board game or air hockey.  But this year is different.  When friends come over I have to force them out of the house to go on the trampoline, ride their bikes, play basketball.  All they and their friends want to do is play on the computer or video games.

Maybe I am taking this all too serious…maybe I am just being a boring mom. 

This Christmas may be their last for believing in Santa. The toothfairy case has been cracked wide open, Easter Bunny is about 80% false right now, and Santa…well I am sure the disbelief is weighing on their minds.

I guess overall I want them to be excited and happy about Christmas and not disappointed in the gifts we choose not to get them.

This may be a LONG WINTER!!!!!

Little rock garden

This is a way overdue post.  Maybe not interesting to some, but due!

This summer, we decided to plant a garden in an area of the backgarden that we have kept “unused” with plans of planting for 3 years now.

I can proudly say that this little garden is still alive and growing beautifully.  Not sure on all the plant names but I do know that there is rhubarb and a birch tree (compliments of the Department of Enviroment who give residents 2 free tree sapplings a year…we had 2 but 1 died).

I now present some pictures of our little rock garden.  Enjoy!!





Alaska Vacation July 2011

Panning Gold with Donald Duck


We boarded a Disney Cruise from Vancouver to Alaska for 7 days.  Beautiful scenery, relaxing, but unfortunately I was seasick for 2 days.  Enjoy the pics!!

Liarsville, Alaska

Boat Tour in Ketcikan

Boat Tour in Ketchikan

Fun with Pluto!!

Mendenhall Glacier in the background


View from the Deck


Beautiful scenery


Crab boat tour on the Aleution Ballad


Sawyer Glacier